I don't expect u to respond but I have to tell you how it feels losing you, you see our kids I can always say they're mine but as for you I can't say your mine anymore. And it feels like I've been mourning your death...there's not a day that goes by that I don't shed tears...as I'm typing this I am again crying so much my phone will probably get wet. See Chris, I might as well had buried your casket. I can text and call you but your words don't touch like they used to cause you say nothing loving and you might come near while you bring the kids to see me but I can't touch you like I used to. To me that's you, or should I say the Us being dead. I cry more about us being dead & just this entire year than I've ever cried since Joseph's death. Can you now imagine how much love that is. ..that I'm still holding on to....I just don't miss you, I'm grieving and mourning. Every morning every night. Everywhere I go & see a couple that seems like true love & every movie I see with couple made out to be with true love, I breakdown, even in public....why?... because you are my true love. There will never be a past tense in what I just said.
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